Holy Mule!

Meet Cyrus! He is the baby of my 25yr old pony/appaloosa, Rosebud. Two weekends ago my parents and little sisters went away for the weekend to Holiday World. Whey they returned they had a message about Rosebud. They assumed that the guy taking care of the cows had found her and wanted to give us the bad news. They were extremly surprised to find out that instead Rosebud had given birth to a bouncing baby boy. Ive decided that he is a miracle baby. Rosebud has been in bad health the last few years and we all figured she was living on borrowed time. This last winter she was extremly down in the back and could barely walk. We even considered putting her down but she slowly started to improve so we opted out of that option. She lives out in my grandpas cow pasture for most of the summer and is usually hanging out right in the middle of the herd along with the donkeys, but the last few weeks she was avoiding them and hiding in the back of the pasture. We assumed she was looking for a final resting place, but instead she was looking for a birthing place that would be safe. My sister Kaydee named the baby Cyrus after Miley Cyrus. Yes I agree that is cheesy but it actually is a good name for a mule I think. I also think that Cyrus is another one of Gods ways to show me His infinite power. Sometimes I forget that He can do anything that He wants to because its so much easier for me to sulk in my self pity and assume that all hope is gone. With set back after set back in my plan for making baby Lewis its become almost second nature for me to assume that no miracle will happen because there is no hope. With my worsening pessimistic attitude God has had to become more creative in His ways of showing me that He is capable of anything and He will work a miracle in my life in His timing. I think allowing a 25yr old pony to have her first/only baby at the end of her life is a pretty creative and impressive way of opening my eyes. To my family Cyrus is just a cute new pet, but to me he is a symbol of so much more. He is my hope of grace. I know that God shouldnt have to use such drastic ways to show me that He is more than capable of allowing me to become pregnant, but he knows my stubborn heart and goes drastic anyway. So in a nut shell, if Rosebud can have a baby then I can have a baby! It may take me longer than most people but God willing I’ll have my miracle baby too. For know I’ll just enjoy watching Piper and Cyrus play together and try my best to remember the infinite grace that God has.

 

Published in:  on June 23, 2008 at 11:19 am Comments (2)

Finally!!!

My letter from Health Alliance finally arrived today after many phone calls and 3 requests. Now all thats left to do is fax it into BCBS and then wait a few weeks to see if they decide to wave my pre-existing condition clause and not only pay for my very expensive consultation visit but also pay for me to begin treatments! My infertility is now all in the hands of the insurance men and women at BCBS. Im doing my best to not get my hope up but I just feel so close to getting an answer. Please pray that the decision will be quick and that if the outcome is not what Im wanting and asking for that I will have the understanding and the patience to wait until January.

Published in:  on June 10, 2008 at 11:43 am Comments (2)